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back in October

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I told myself I’d figure it all out one day

but one day never seemed to find it’s way

kept on waiting for a clear view

spent too much time looking through the rearview

lead me to leave the life I was taught to do

now wandering and wondering

have I just completely lost it

I better have myself together by now

but now wasn’t where I was living

I can’t run backward to the beginning

this moment is the only thing I have

chasing dreams and chancing visions

is that when you’re really living

replace the waiting for the time to smile

enjoy the journey and every single mile

each could be the last one I get to keep

wake up in the morning thankful for the sleep

telling the face in the mirror I am sorry

I know that it’s been counting on me

I don’t know what I am doing but I believe

I’ll never have it all figured out

I finally get it

we can’t always come out winning

losing teaches the best lessons

can help build brighter visions

or keep you up late making questionable decisions

grateful to be falling asleep sober

remembering how it felt back in October

Heather Dyan Morgan

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● About Me

I’m Heather Dyan Morgan, a writer, speaker, and podcast host who left behind everything I knew to start over from scratch.
Literally the definition of wandering the wild mess.

Born and raised in Utah (yes, I grew up Mormon), I walked away from the only life I had ever known—including a good man who simply wasn’t meant for me, and moved to Tennessee with no friends, no family, and no place to call home. I had spent over a decade climbing the corporate ladder, and one day I simply told my boss: “I’m moving. Keep me or don’t.”

A little wild? Maybe. But I’ve always felt like a caged bird waiting to be free.
And once I finally jumped, there was no turning back.

Those early months, bouncing between Airbnbs, navigating heartbreak, identity shifts, and deep solitude, were more than a leap. They were a rebirth.
And somehow, they became the beginning of everything.

Now I share my journey through my podcast (Wandering the Wild Mess), I’m working on an aligned project of digital healing guides, and continue to pour into the written word—because storytelling has always been my way of making sense of the chaos and helping others feel less alone in theirs.

I’ve been writing since I could hold a pencil and asking deep questions since I could form a sentence. I’m endlessly curious about the human experience—how we think, feel, and move through this world. I believe we don’t fail; we just evolve.

I’m here to remind you that it’s okay not to have it all figured out. You’re allowed to grow, grieve, start over, and still be wildly worthy of love and joy.

I enjoy deep conversations, acoustic music, mountain views, and campfire moments that make you feel something. And I believe that if you’re reading this, you’re here for a reason.

Thanks for being part of my wild mess. Let’s wander it together.

And in case no one told you today—you matter

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